CAN'T STOP SHAKING IDK WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN NEXT...I'M CRYING MY HEART OUT IT JUST HURTS SO BAD NOW....I JUST REALLY WANT GOD TO HELP ME UNDERSTAND AND I ALSO WANT TO APOLOGIZE TO GREG I SHOULDVE LISTEND TO U AND I NEED TO TRUST U MORE OFTEN....I DON'T WANNA CRY IT MAKES DADDY CRY BUT I CAN'T HOLD IT IN ANYMORE AND MY LAST GRANDPA SICK AND HE BETTER GO TO THE HOSPITAL NOW CUZ I DON'T CARE IF HE DON'T WANT TO! HE'S THE ONLY ONE I GOT LEFT!!!