It's been a bit too long since my last blog. I have no actual or important excuse for that. We currently have a sub in fourth period, IBCA, so that is probably the only reason that I am able to do this on a school computer. I doubt anyone would read this but who cares, whatever. That's not the point of writing so that is why I am continuing.
I don't know if it is fear or any other emotion but when my ex just said "Hey, Liz" randomly out of no where to me, my heart literllay jumped. It's been randomly jumping like that all day, however, my whole body nearly jumped off the ground. I don't have feelings for him anymore. So it's not like I like him and I'm thinking "OMIGOD, OMIGOD, HE JUST TALKED TO ME!!" because for one I don't talk like that (unless I am mocking someone), and two, eww. I was going through a faze back then. Maybe, maybe, he just starlted me.
Whenever he talks to me, I get this mixed feeling of irritation, regret, sorrow, excitement, and jittery-ish-ness.<--Not a word is it? Above all,I get curious. Why would he leave me like that, just drop me, throw me away like trash, ignore me, act like we were never together, not answer messages/calls/texts, and when we get back to school just be all nice and try to talk to me like he just met me and wants to be friends. It is crazy! It's like he just erased a part of time and attemptented to start over. Makes no sense. I'm over him, I'm just not over the fact why he did it because...well, I have no idea for the life of me why and what was the point of that. I go through a list of reasons ever freaking time he talks to me. It only bothers me when I sit down to gather my thoughts or when he smiles at me. You moved on, what's the point of tormenting me. You've had how many girlfriends after me? Besides, he just left, he never broke up with me! What a jerkhole. Total jack-off, douchebag. Whatever...You don't even deserve this blog...
I don't know if it is fear or any other emotion but when my ex just said "Hey, Liz" randomly out of no where to me, my heart literllay jumped. It's been randomly jumping like that all day, however, my whole body nearly jumped off the ground. I don't have feelings for him anymore. So it's not like I like him and I'm thinking "OMIGOD, OMIGOD, HE JUST TALKED TO ME!!" because for one I don't talk like that (unless I am mocking someone), and two, eww. I was going through a faze back then. Maybe, maybe, he just starlted me.
Whenever he talks to me, I get this mixed feeling of irritation, regret, sorrow, excitement, and jittery-ish-ness.<--Not a word is it? Above all,I get curious. Why would he leave me like that, just drop me, throw me away like trash, ignore me, act like we were never together, not answer messages/calls/texts, and when we get back to school just be all nice and try to talk to me like he just met me and wants to be friends. It is crazy! It's like he just erased a part of time and attemptented to start over. Makes no sense. I'm over him, I'm just not over the fact why he did it because...well, I have no idea for the life of me why and what was the point of that. I go through a list of reasons ever freaking time he talks to me. It only bothers me when I sit down to gather my thoughts or when he smiles at me. You moved on, what's the point of tormenting me. You've had how many girlfriends after me? Besides, he just left, he never broke up with me! What a jerkhole. Total jack-off, douchebag. Whatever...You don't even deserve this blog...
