Lets agree to agree we are both insane.

       Don’t know why but whenever I look in his eyes, I become a little frightened. And so far, that’s just from pictures. I wonder how it will all be when I see him in person next year. I think I liked him once. I must have. Don’t know why. Don’t really remember exactly when. But what is even the definition of like? Maybe I just at that time, whatever time it was, found him a bit interesting. He’s creepy now. Something is wrong with him. I feel it deep down in my soul. I find myself literally hold my breath when our paths cross or when he comments on my stuff or tags me. I remember it once being the opposite way. Me commenting on his stuff. Did he once hold his breath as if he was about to jump into a lake as I do? I don’t fear him. For some odd reason I feel he has a secrete and that I cannot trust him. I may never know him. Why is this swimming around in my head. Things like this only happen when I actually do cross paths with someone in the future but I’ve never seen something that is so clear and so blurry. I don’t understand it. I had almost felt an extreme dislike for him once. I remember that almost, almost clearly. I sound insane. I’ve always doubted if I was sane.
Sometimes, I’m just waiting for something to pop up on my computer with him just saying something. Maybe saying he’s, he’s an evil force from beyond the grave or something. Wow, now im laughing at myself. Something usually does pop up soon. Nothing that says something about crap about him being evil. But I don’t think he’s evil. I think something is just wrong with him. Something unnatural. Something is wrong with him. Something that scares me. Something in his eyes you know. I’ll never reveal the identity of this person and if I ever find out there is something wrong, I’ll never tell a soul. So why am I trippin?
It’s like talking to him, he’s odd. If our paths just so happen to cross on the internet it seems as if he fricking hates me. As if I am the evil one. The way he expresses himself through writing it just comes off as he thinks that I am just this young, naive child, as if I am beneath him and he is superior. Then the next second he’s acting all like he could almost be my friend or as if he is checking for potential in me or at the least sees some potential in me. For what exactly? I have no idea. It’s confusing. I never fully understand what exactly his motive is. I want to figure it out. Sometimes I feel like it’s a long chess game that we are playing. And its always out of the blue, he sneaks up and he’s there. Watching taunting. Saying something, something that aggravates me. As if he’ll give me what seems to be kindness up until this point where he just up and decides that he wont be nice anymore. As if he will be mean. As so I thought it was random. But I had discovered a pattern as to where I could pin-point exactly where he would say something and what it might be. I sound insane. Oh how I wish I could show you the proof but it is long gone, lost deep in my records. Hidden. And besides, I cannot show you without exposing everything. I cannot further show such embarrassments. I can only explain or more like summarize it.  One day however, he will find out that I am on to it. Those eyes cannot cause me to listen any longer. I only see deception in it now and I refuse to let him get to me ever again. He describes himself as smart and victorious. Ha, more like young and naive. Never shall he get to me again and I have done pretty well myself as for getting the attention and then shutting all of his tactics down. I wont be please until I find out what his issues is.

He rocks in the treetops all day long, Hoppin' and a-boppin' and a-singin' his song. All the little birds on J-Bird Street, Love to hear the robin go tweet, tweet, tweet.

Lol, so that's what you were talking about. Who is this. You seriously made my day. I haven't smiled in a long while.

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its obvious yhu lykee him && hes talkinq 2 her whut chu gonna do???

Okay, I currently don't know any guys well enough to actually like them. And the ones I actually do know, I'm not currently interested in them (no offense to those guys). And the whole who ever is talking to whoever, I can't control who talks to who nor do I want to. What I am going to do is be myself. I don't compete if that's what you were getting at so Nice Day.

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tweet tweet twiddly deet .

deet deet twiddly tweet tweet? Lol.

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wwho dht guy yhu b talkinn 2 on heree????

1). What guy 2). What cave did you crawl out of? Speak English next time lol.

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Death of a Stranger.

               It's funny how life works. That one person you see everyday and never talk to will be gone the next and you'd be surprised how much of a life they had before it was taken away. I see this dude walking down the street everyday and at all the football games. I knew nothing about him. I would've road the bus with him this incoming school year if he was alive. It's crazy you know. Never held a conversation with him. Never knew he was my close cousin's best friend. Never knew I knew so many of his friends. Never knew a girl who I met in 3rd grade and knew all this time became his girl-friend 5days ago. I never knew I've been holding a conversation with his cousin almost everyday on Facebook. Never really knew his name. It's crazy. I could swear I saw him walking hours ago. I think he's the third kid from our high school to die this year. One girl a bad car accident and him, heart - attack. He was on the basket-ball team. He was tall as the mountains (which I've never seen before). He seemed nice. I read all this stuff about how he was there for people when they needed him and that he was so full of life. That he was just at someone's house yesterday. Hell, I could swear I just saw him walking looking so cold a few hours ago. He looked odd. He looked different. Barely recognized him. I wish he was still here, alive. Not for my sake but for his friends and family. I wish his heart at this very moment could you know, just jump start to life and that he would just run outside and go play basketball or go to a party at least one last time. I mean that had to have happened so quick. I want him to be right there walking in the street with his friends so I can scream at my dad who's driving like a maniac to slow down before he runs him over. I always had a little wonder of how the life of a stranger on the street, what it was like. I think I finally got a look now. And I just wish he was alive now because all the people that I do know are super sad. Sadder than I normally am. When school starts, we're going to hear maybe a speech or two dedicate to him, it's a small town maybe something on the regular channels and on the Fourth of July gathering at West Bridge Park. I'm just imagining how sad everyone is going to be. And the crazy thing is, it seems he was always the one to stop all these other people's sadness. I remember seeing him joke a lot too. I remembered that yesterday. Never occurred to me why I remembered it. The dude he just seemed so full of life and it's a small world. You never know how you could somehow be connect on a web to a stranger. A friend of a couple of friends. You know it seems it's always the people who seem so full of life who lose it ever so quickly. It's a shame. It seems it's always the nicest ones, the ones with the closest families. The ones with so many friends, the ones who seems so many people depend on. It's insane, it makes me think even more about the strangers on the street. He has the same last name as one of my cousins you know, he could've even been related to me. Never thought of that. Probably not. Never know. Rest in Peace D. Alexander. It's obvious you were missed by so many before you even took that last breath.

What was the worst movie you've ever seen?

FOOTLOOSE! I HATE HATE HATE FOOTLOOSE! When we did it for Beta, I was doing the darn dances in my sleep. And the movie was boring, I thought I would die if I didn't pluck my eyes out first. I watched it so I can be informed on the dances and the stuff we were doing. Studying movies are evil. I'll take the textbook! <--Rambling

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If you could wake up as anyone tomorrow, who would it be?

Myself. I don't see anyone on a higher level at this moment. I suck, you suck lets agree we all suck and stay in our own bodies. Okay, love you.

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What's your dream car?

Black Convertible Beatle, leather seats. I will cherish it for my entire life (whenever I get it).

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What's your favorite type of flower?

I like roses. The ones that are white, black, dark red, peachy, whatever. And I think I like daisies.

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If you could rid the world of one thing, what would it be?

Cancer. You know what, any type of disease

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How would you describe yourself in 3 words?

In-Describe-Able t-:

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What's the best gift you've ever given?

The gift of a friend :-) Ha, NOT, just kidding, I love my friends

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What did you dream about last night?

Well, I "imagined me and you, I do, I think about you day and night, it's only right to think about the one you love and hold um tight so happy together!" No not really, It was just black and dark and then I woke up... I haven't really been sleeping lately.

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If you had the opportunity to live one year of your life over again, which year would you choose?

They all suck to tell you the truth. But I'd say last year, some of the people and stuff that I dealt with really messed me up and I feel I messed up a lot last year on grades and I got rid of all the villains a little too late. I wish I would've listened to my teachers about stuff like that earlier.

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If you had access to a time machine, where and when would be the first place you travel to?

W-O-O-D-S-T-O-C-K!

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What celebrity would play you in a movie about your life?

I have no idea. Whoever they can find at an insane asylum. Don't know. You tell me.

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Who do you think should be the next president of the United States?

Sarah McLachlan, she's going to come up there in the middle of the campaign with injured little puppies and kittens and sing that song and break us down with tears and we'll all cry as we cast the vote.

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Are you more of a talker or more of a listener?

Didn't I just answer this question?

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What was your worst travel experience?

Okay, Alabama in 7th grade, evacuation for Gustav, drowning in a pool, no one came to help me... Long story of how I ended up saving myself and have water issues now..

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Who's the funniest person you know?

My dad, he makes no sense half the time and can't speak English that well. Yes, that maybe a little sick but he also tells some very corny jokes that literally make no sense... I love my family.

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What's your favorite genre of music?

I'm tied between just about all rock and alternative along with bluesy type stuff. But I'm cool listening to other types of music.

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Would you rather date a lot of different people, or be in a committed relationship?

Committed. Dating a whole bunch of people would just cause a lot of drama for me. That's too hard, when I like somebody and we start dating and all that, I'm focusing on that relationship and only think of that guy as being more than my friend. But maybe that's just me and how my brain works...

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Are you more of a talker or more of a listener?

Well, on computer, I'm more of a typer because I can't help but put too much. BUT, I read all that the person responds to me with. In real life, I'm a listener.

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Have you broken any bones? If so, how?

Nope.

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